Today at 1200 I will adventure on my first appointments for a pain free back. I honestly don’t know what that will feel like. So many people say that it will feel like your 20 again. But at 20 I had already endured a year in the military at Fort Hood and had already completed around 6 field problems….so I’m wanting a back that feels more like 16, when I was at the top of my game in Track & Field in High School. Either way, I hope that the pain leaves my body for whatever the short amount of time will be. What I am hoping is that the pain will decrease the pain and the loss of feeling in my legs. It will determine the issues that I have with my legs. We all wish to live a pain free life and I just hope this procedure today opens the doors to a pain free future, but what I am sure of it will be temporary. Drugs and shots will never fix the issues I have and just mask the real problem. Because my issues have been neglected for so long I am sure this is most likely my only solution. I still refuse to take any type of pain medication. If the pain gets to the point to where I need artificial relief then you might as well put me down like a dying horse. I refuse to put that type of medication in my body and refuse to become dependent on the false idea that the pain is truly gone. I’ve dealt with my concurrent pain for over 12 years and as it intensifies of the years it will not break me and it will not define me!